hey, i dont know if anyone even remembers me anymore, but im betyouwont or @johnxd . i left this community years ago by cheating and being an absolute cuck. dont get me wrong there were problems with this server but i brought it upon myself. as time passed i moved on from minecraft, i loved overwatch and other fps games. today i opened up minecraft for the first time in years. i tried joining every server/world i once played on. it felt pretty bad not being able to join arcadian since i was banned. this server was basically my childhood. my "minecraft phase". i saw grape playing it before i even had minecraft and when i did get it for my birthday, arcadian was one of the first couple servers i joined. When i was 12, i only had to worry about my balance on prisons, my kills on kit, my number of god apples. i was happy playing here. it was a routine for me. come home, eat, do whatever homework and just sit down and play. i remember just simply mining on prisons the whole night as it snowed outside. from my memories, i adore those moments. I knew that arcadian was struggling while i was banned, even before the ban, it was kind of obvious the server is on a downhill. but i never thought of it shutting down. after all, it was arcadian, the server from my childhood. the server that made me who i am and formed my competitive side. i was planning on making a ban appeal today, but saw the announcement. its really sad for me to see this. this post has no actual value, it is just a reflection on my younger self and the amazing memories this server has made for me. thank you arcadian and every player who encountered me while playing for everything. you shaped my childhood. honestly, memories from this server sometimes make me cry, i am finishing high school and studying for a career i dont even like or interested in and memories like these just tear me up as they remind me of who i was. just a child. playing on arcadian. thank you for everything.